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2012-01-24T18:24:00.002+08:00

took a photo with grandaunt for cny. i love family photos a lot.
brother cooked a bowl of noodles for me :) its still nice of him to do it.
and im glad the family was together yesterday.

2012-01-21T23:39:00.001+08:00

conflicting thoughts.
wanting to step forward but yet retreating at the same time.

pi michelle is back for cny :)

a ukelele to play with :D

family dinners, disturbing brother&sister :)

best few days ever

2012-01-12T00:43:00.003+08:00

supposed to be asleep now and i will be in a matter of seconds

short hair after new year, here i come!

thank God in all circumstances

i'm really thankful for everything, everyone in my life

step out of my comfort zone and learn to talk to others

i like being good friends to guys, nothing more nothing less. the feeling of being able to talk about anything under the sun and not having to worry about what i say or do and be irritating.

having suppers together, meals together, with friends whom i've become closer to and no longer are acquaintances. it feels different to be older.

2012-01-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

it hurts, hurts to see everyone leaving.
its too sudden, i cant take it.
have mercy on me O Lord.
:'(

in a foreign environment all over again,
was i too comfortable where i was that God decided to thrust me into a new environment?

learning to rely on God and not on man all over again

2012-01-02T19:42:00.001+08:00

1) Prayer and The Word of God
2) Consider others better than myself
3) Unity of the body of Christ

This are the three things i'll strive for this new year.

I lift up my eyes to the hills.

From where does my help come?

My help comes from the Lord,

who made heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot be moved;

he who keeps you will not slumber.

Behold, he who keeps Israel

will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord is your keeper;

the Lord is your shade on your right hand.

The sun shall not strike you by day,

nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all evil;

he will keep your life.

The Lord will keep

your going out and your coming in

from this time forth and forevermore. (Psalm 121:1-8 ESV)

2012-01-02T19:34:00.001+08:00

To God be the Glory, He be the center of my life. The Lord is amazing, sovereign, King of Kings, worthy of all praise, worthy to be praise.

Unworthy are we of anything but yet He gave His one and only son, Christ, to die on the cross to rescue humanity from suffering on this earth. For those who believed in Christ will have everlasting life.

How great the Father's love for us.

Thank God for 2011, for His mercies.

Everyone is leaving, i cried. I still have to rely on God.

Seek the Lord and his strength;
seek his presence continually! (Psalm 105:4 ESV)

2011-12-22T01:03:00.002+08:00

retreat from the world.
time with God and fellow christians.
would i be able to give up everything and follow Christ?
i am willing but when the time comes, will i still be?

seek ye first the kingdom of God

questions after questions that pop into my head after the trip to logos hope.
glad k was there to listen to me even if she couldnt help.
i am so afraid and it did happen eventually as what i was afraid of.

i will never be heard and even if listened, my words will not be proper 'excuses'.

2011-12-12T21:41:00.000+08:00

Oh no. Accidentally deleted one post. Its okay. I guess ultimately putting down my thoughts is mainly to remind myself of God's goodness.

I need to learn to rely on the sovereignty of God and let Him take control of my life. I have been wanting to take control of my life too much. It is a torture to be worrying all the time when all i have to do is to rely on God.
I have to constantly remind myself i need God.

and i have been foolish. Silly.
I hope i did not give the wrong impression but i think i did. okay, at least i made my preferences clear before.

i was thinking of how often i worry and i say God's will be done. How ironic of me. When would i be able to say Thy will be done and fully trust in Thee?

Close to thee, close to thee, gladly will i toil and suffer, only let me walk with thee.
Do not let me go astray, do not let me wander off. Do not let me do whatever pleases me. Do not let me forget Your faithfulness.

Great company for dinner on sunday! Friends cooked a delectable mouth watering six course meal.

Please keep me in prayers. Pray for
me as i struggle to keep myself afloat, keep myself focused on God.

I love my grandma but i do not know how to communicate with her. I hope she comes to stay with my family. To love her and give her hope in Christ.

2011-12-08T01:03:00.003+08:00

I've been feeling quite out of sorts. I am glad that a is back, b and c is coming back. But i feel like ive been too sensitive and easily irritated this month.

c actually had me reconsidering what defined a good man in terms of a relationship. Never thought of it that way before. the Bible's standards.

i do not want to fall for anyone. not now, not in the future but how can i say for certain. pull me out of the pit if im doing too deep in kay.
i like the way things are right now, how i can comfortably talk without worrying abt nonsense.

please move on, i beg. i never once thought of going back.

God answered my prayer so i too, have to keep to my promise.

2011-11-22T17:58:00.003+08:00

God's grace brought me through today!
The urgency to look for a toilet landed me in SP today! (initially i was at labrador park mrt going to labrador park)
The randomness of barging into the food court hoping to meet a friend made me find WP (which led to TCH)!
The ring of the telephone and three more friends sat with me!
The need to go to the church office to free my must-study-mentality did work
The unexpected kindness of a church Elder fed my hungry stomach with creamy durian!
The usual greetings and asking of how my day was brought me joy to know people do care for me
The one hour there full of smiles made my day
The asking of how my quiet time was made me reflect on how all is forgotten by mid-day (which should not be the case)
God is good

2011-11-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

Take my will, and make it Thine; it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart, it is Thine own; it shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord, I pour at Thy feet its treasure store.
Take myself, and I will be ever, only, all for Thee

For i forget. i forget thy will so often.
When i am not supposed to.

2011-11-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

help me , o Lord

2011-11-07T00:14:00.002+08:00

I love good food with wonderful company.
It does not necessarily mean expensive restaurants with undeniably luxurious ambience.
Talking loudly and eating food comfortably. Nothing beats that.
All the trouble to pay hundreds to nimble on exotic food quietly with manners, dressed to the nines.Meh.

2011-10-31T20:05:00.001+08:00

I know not why God’s wondrous grace
To me He hath made known,
Nor why, unworthy, Christ in love
Redeemed me for His own.

But I know Whom I have believed,
And am persuaded that He is able
To keep that which I’ve committed
Unto Him against that day.

2011-10-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

running man has been my source of entertainment. hehe

thousand times I've failed,

still Your mercy remains.

bennie hasnt been studying though. :/

why is everyone going overseas to study! It'll be my turn soon! :B

2011-10-27T11:14:00.001+08:00

don't quite know what I'm doing right now.

Priorities are all messed up and jumbled up.

2011-09-21T23:45:00.001+08:00

Thanksgiving to God (Things to be joyful about) :

1. This semester's results.

2. Work

3. Awesome treats during work

4. Wonderful- colleague- who-seats-beside-me

5. Long bus rides

6. Making a new friend who now goes with me to church :)

7. Being able to go to church on wednesdays,fridays, saturdays and sundays.

8. Having an omnipotent, omniscience, omnipresent God.

9. Fellowship with Christians

10. God listens to prayers

11. God is always near me

12. God's mercy

13. God's grace

14. God's love

15. Everything- I do not deserve that God has given to me.

16. God's comfort

17.The holidays

18. HK - 10 Oct (Not confirm if im going yet though heheh)

19. Guitar in school

20. Having to go to the doctor to get my energy bars back :D

Many many many many moreeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

2011-09-11T20:16:00.002+08:00

love so amazing, so divine

demands my soul, my life, my all

thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

2011-09-08T20:00:00.002+08:00

Day 4 of work has ended. Such mundane a life, I wonder how people go through each day.

2011-09-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

Do Not Be Anxious

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his ispan of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, kO you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Matthew 6:25-34

2011-09-03T13:13:00.002+08:00

One proper dinner with brenda and ain after much postponing, delaying , canceling of meet-ups *beams*An everything-under-the-sun conversation accompanied with non-halal food :)

my eyes are glued to addictive dramas :/

2011-08-30T13:28:00.002+08:00

confirmation

never knew this day would come so quickly. An outward testimony of my inward faith

2011-08-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

Taking this path was not a wrong choice. An amazing one, in fact. God has guided me along His path, what He knows is best for me. (: Mercy and grace He never fails to shower me with.

Fickle me, faithful God.

Indecisive me, all knowing God.

Unconfident me, sovereign God.

2011-07-25T00:35:00.002+08:00

Beautiful Sunday was eventful.

Beloved ones whom I've known since 13/14

Different worlds. Why do I now realize? Why do I now see?

2011-06-27T22:55:00.002+08:00

Thanks for treating to me to everything that i cant eat :)

Crabs, prawns, ice cream, cakes. hahahahhahaah

yay

Ern played the birthday song on her cello for me :)

ern and dom bought me a tub of ice cream ;)

Tj, tim, john bought cake :D

Dhan gave me pretty stickers

:) contented.

2011-06-26T18:11:00.000+08:00

2011-06-20T19:59:00.003+08:00

Having a heat rash,sore throat and blocked nose. I'm back!

Knowing people better, making new friends. How I wished I did not have to come back. 7 days being the Bennie I once was. Coming back to reality was quite hard.

God is good all the time.

2011-06-10T23:37:00.003+08:00

getaway at 0815 11062011.

Although its 17 more days to the 18th year, I don't feel the excitement anymore. I don't look forward to it, neither do I want to celebrate it.

I am thankful and grateful to God for bring me to so many places during this 2 years. Thailand, U.S, Hong Kong, China(Shen Zhen), Macau and to add to it Cambodia(soon)! To have fun with my family, to experience Him, to see His work being done. Its amazing.

2011-06-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

rain,rain why you come only after I woke up from my nap ):
please rain more! i hear lightning :P

I have Ben&Jerries and its 11.30pm, should I eat it?

Enjoyed sight-reading 10 new NSB pieces!

The great thing about faith in God is that it keeps a man undisturbed in the midst of disturbance.

Notes on Isaiah, 1376 R

2011-05-24T13:36:00.002+08:00

I was reading my daily devotion on utmost.org and worrying about my pathways for year 3 when the verse today was this:
. . . do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on —Matthew 6:25

2011-05-05T20:17:00.001+08:00

"Help me O Lord"
-psalms 70:1

This is the terrified cry of someone who sees the snares of the enemy, the cry of someone besieged day and night and exclaiming that he cannot escape unless his Protector comes to the rescue.

2011-04-09T11:56:00.002+08:00

tilt your head to look at it.

HongKong,ShenZhen and Macau are nice places to be in. I love the food there and probably can stay there for a while more but I eventually missed home.

Listened to music for the whole day yesterday. I reminisced the times my section worked so hard for things we wanted.
Tuesday: Really proud of the band though! While watching them play on that very stage which I once too was on, my heart stopped. 10th Gold. Something no others had done before. We shall keep this legend to ourselves.

2011-03-24T19:20:00.002+08:00

different.

2011-03-14T11:05:00.003+08:00

I didn't expect camp to be so fun. I thought I would be missing home for the 3 nights but I was so tired, I always fell asleep immediately once my head touched the bed.
I kayak-ed 14km, trekk-ed for 1km while talking to my friend and carrying a heavy backpack, Rock climbed all the way to the top, played challenging games, slept in a basha tent, cooked in the outdoors.

I do not like the feeling of being misled.

Adele looks so beautiful!

FIRESTORM （ファイヤー・ストーム）：川崎吹奏楽団

2011-03-13T14:50:00.000+08:00

JIAYOU YUHUA CONCERT BAND :) hahah

2011-03-01T22:43:00.003+08:00

She woke up in cold sweat. Bewildered and confused, she sat on her bed for a long time. The dream was an unpleasant one. In the past, if she had ever dreamt about that, it would have been a happy one but she had never, not once had that dream. As she thought about how her past had become her nightmare, she clasped her hands and prayed fervently.

2011-02-28T14:25:00.002+08:00

Worrying is something I need to get rid off, its not doing me any good. Its harming me.
My dentist treats me like a child, so having a baby face isn't that bad after all. I have filled myself up with activities for the upcoming holidays and I don't know if that is a good thing or not.
Final paper on friday and please remind me not to be so carefree and then worry all about not giving my best.
i feel like im using my emotions to cover up what im thinking and it makes me feel disgusted with myself because im not behaving like what i am supposed to be.
pray for me ):

2011-02-25T17:55:00.001+08:00

Philippians 4:6 (New Living Translation)

6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

This verse has brought me through my week and it is still bringing me through everything. (:

2011-02-14T21:00:00.002+08:00

Walked from Starbucks at coronation with Dhan, home :)
Best valentines day ever.
Reminded also about the greatest love. Jesus.
Dhan will be alright :) Dhan is a strong girl <3
Will pray for you :)

2011-02-14T10:33:00.002+08:00

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
Glad that I did a video for my friends..

2011-02-08T22:25:00.001+08:00

Not focused!! Why, why do I have to be so weird.

2011-02-08T11:21:00.001+08:00

Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your
neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win
favor and a good name in the sight of God and man.

Proverbs 3:3-4, New International Version

I read this for QT and my daily email showed this too!

you will never give me security, never even from the beginning, from the start.

2011-02-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

My most cherished red packet is not the one with the most money but the one from the oldest lady I know. How not to pity myself when I am 87? How not to, when I can't even walk. Praying for her is the only thing I can do.

D.ギリングハム／ウィズ・ハート・アンド・ヴォイス

2011-02-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

security, thats all i need.

A crushing hurt comes to our heart and the sympathizing, scarred
hand of Christ presses the wound; and just for a moment,the pain
seems to intensify,...but finally the bleeding stops.

-- Beth Moore

2011-01-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

Having so much to grasp this week,
Joshua and Rahab, the Taiwanese orphans, being strong and take courage, being a Daniel, the Lord's prayer.
"when I am feeling anxious, sad or hopeless, I meditate on the Lord's prayer" Something I've never thought of before.

Have you thought about His (God) handling of the gospel? God
needs to get a message out to the human race, without which they
will perish...forever. What's the plan? First, He starts with
the most unlikely group ever: a couple of prostitutes, a few
fishermen with no better than a second-grade education, a tax
collector. Then, he passes the ball to us. Unbelievable.

-- John Eldredge

一雙看不見的手

2011-01-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

Though I can't see You nor touch You

I know You are whispering to me

O! Lord Jesus O! Lord Jesus

I know You have always been here

It's Your hands—the hands with nail marks

That console the broken heart of mine

It's Your voice—that gentle words

That refills me—the hunger within my soul

)))))))):
They grew up in an orphanage but singing praises to God was their comfort.

2011-01-27T09:48:00.000+08:00

Amazing love, how can it be,
that thou my King, shouldst die for me.

The great thing to remember is that, though our feelings come
and go, His love for us does not.

-- C. S. Lewis

2011-01-25T20:12:00.002+08:00

must must must get over Hyun Bin.
I am not going to watch Korean dramas for at least a period of time in order not to have this kind of weird obsessions ever again. This is the first time I'm so excited over something that isn't realistic.

This kept me going for these two days

Joshua 1:7-9 (New International Version, ©2010)

7 “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Be strong, be strong, be strong in the Lord

Took me a week to apprehend what God has been trying to tell me.
I'm glad I finally got it and it has helped me to be strong again.

2011-01-16T20:14:00.002+08:00

Pray for me please! Thank you!
I'm going through my tests and projects,it is going to be a tough week ahead.

2011-01-08T09:18:00.002+08:00

5 Jan - Happy birthday J! I hope you are well and growing strong. I miss Thailand and I miss you.

8 Jan- Its been an overwhelming 2 weeks. To serve but not to be served.

2011-01-04T22:01:00.002+08:00

How can I say thanks, for the things you have done for me

things so undeserved, yet you gave your love for me

To God be the Glory

Be still, and know that I am God:

I will be exalted among the heathen,

I will be exalted in the earth.

The LORD of hosts is with us;

the God of Jacob is our refuge.
Psalms 46

Many things to thank God for (:

reminding me that I may have friends but I only have one friend.

What a friend we have in Jesus,

All our sins and griefs to bear!

What a privilege to carry

Everything to God in prayer!

Oh, what peace we often forfeit;

Oh, what needless pain we bear

All because we do not carry

Everything to God in prayer!

2011-01-01T01:58:00.002+08:00

One thing I desire is to gaze upon your beauty and your majesty.

Sovereign God, Amazing God, Almighty God, Creator of all things, how Majestic is your name, O Lord, words are not enough to describe you.

How you;ve changed me during camp, how you taught me to love, taught me that no matter how tired I was, all I needed was your strength. To rely on you. "'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.'

"Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

You reminded me You are the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. You deserve all Glory, all praise yet I take you for granted. Take you more like a friend rather than a King. Though you are my friend, you are my God.

You showed me how gracious you were to send your Son down on Earth to die for our sins. How He was willing to drink the cup of suffering when I was not even willing to drink the water with black paint.

You opened my eyes to see the Lord's prayer in a different manner. How lightly I've taken it for the 17 years of my life.

Thy will be done on Earth as it is in heaven. Let your will be done, O Lord

Give us this day our daily bread. What is sufficient,what is enough for us.

You also reminded me that the only role model I should have is Christ. Man will disappoint but not Christ.

We are all unworthy of You. Unworthy of all You've done for us.

Thank you for Your love for us. Thank You.

I realised I've been asking for things from You,O Lord, more than praising You, more than thanking You, more than spending time with You.

2010-12-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

U.S.S and resorts world was awesome. Enjoyed the hotel stay as well as the rides at universal studios!

Please remember to breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

I'm tired. I'm really tired. I feel like not doing anything already. It was an exhausting and taxing month. Exams and unexpected disappointments.

exploded. ): all i just needed was quietness. i wanted to be alone.

pls leave me alone tyvm.

you have no idea how listless,hopeless i am now.

maybe it has always been that i'll do everything and yet get shout at but he doesn't do anything but yet gets loved.

チャールダーシュcsardas：市立柏高校吹奏楽部

2010-12-11T12:55:00.000+08:00

I miss my mallets.

2010-12-04T20:30:00.002+08:00

Bro is back! :)
He took away my internet cable ):<>

Jaz came to my house on friday and we now have to keep an arm apart from each other. ^^

Feeling tired from everything and thinking about things I used to tell myself to not think about maybe to lie to myself that I had a best friend or so to say. But its alright now, I don't need one.

Here is the hope for every weary traveler whose feet are tired of the slippery instability of mud of a fallen world.

Your weariness is a signpost. It's meant to cause you to cry out for help.

It's meant to put an end to your belief that situations, people, locations, possessions,positions, or answers will satisfy the longing of your heart.

And as you abandon your hope in the mirage rocks of this fallen world and begin to hunger for the true Rock, he will reach out and place you on solid ground.

2010-11-27T14:38:00.003+08:00

I'm falling sick~ but still out of house because mama and papa are really nice to me ^^ making me feel so much better.

and and and Happy birthday Erin! This is the fifth year I've known you and we are so near yet so far now. In the same course but different class. Cried together, been there for each other, gone through far more than normal friends have. Thanks for being so tall^^

(: See you later!

2010-11-26T12:26:00.003+08:00

THIS IS SUPER EMBARRASSING. I WEBCAM-ED ON ELLUMINATE-.- I THINK EVERYONE SAW ME LAHHHHHHHH. There were 4 classes!!!! gosh.

my favourite photo but Nat isnt init.

^^GEEEEEEEEEEEKS.

2010-11-21T20:53:00.003+08:00

Feeling very tired. I slept for five hours in the afternoon and still tired.

Glad to have talked to N yesterday ^^ Not lost in the 9 months of disappearance.

2010-11-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

In his grace, he wont play hide and seek with you.

In your weakness and weariness, cry out to him.

He will find you and be your rock.

On christ the solid rock i stand,

All other ground is sinking sand.

2010-11-19T12:03:00.003+08:00

In a world that is held in such deep darkness,
where the light of truth often seems more of a flicker than a flame,
in a world where deceit, dishonesty, falsehood divert and distort the lives of so many,
in times when a myriad voices say so much about so many things,
where confusion seems readily available and clarity seems hard to find,
in a world where opinions rise to a place where only truth should be, and every voice seems to get an equal hearing,
in the constant cacophony of ten thousand contradictory voices,
it is a wonderful and amazing thing to be able to say with rest and confidence,
The Lord is my light!
My heart has been lit by the illuminating and protective glory of his powerful and transforming grace,
my mind has been renewed by the luminescent presence of his truth guiding Holy Spirit,
and my life has been guided by the ever shining lamp of his Word.

2010-11-14T14:44:00.001+08:00

comforts me, encourages me.
thank you all so much

2010-11-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

The need to study. To stop playing!!!!!!!!!

2010-11-10T20:01:00.002+08:00

Dear 4th December, please come soon. It will be great if you come tomorrow. Thank you.

2010-11-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

A load of my mind! Feels pretty good!
I love the show @10pm!!
I won't open the door any sooner, the key has been thrown into the deep sea. Till it is found again, the door is closed.

I can't take it anymore, not putting any of his pictures anywhere. ): I miss him a lot. Its so unfair that we can't speak the same language. How I wish we could speak the same language. We could skype all day and play games together. We could just smile at each other and not do anything else. PLS. I NEED A LITTLE BROTHER. A nice little brother who isn't from Singapore. Its just different. J melted me heart.

2010-11-07T22:04:00.002+08:00

Our life is full of brokenness - broken relationships, broken
promises, broken expectations. How can we live with that
brokenness without becoming bitter and resentful except by
returning again and again to God's faithful presence in our
lives.
-- Henri Nouwen

Brokenness. Longing to be in his presence. Seeing the bad things that I can do, it makes me cry to imagine God's love. How gracious he is, how unworthy I am.

2010-11-06T18:39:00.001+08:00

yay :) I'm done with preparations now left with the touch ups and rehearsing and I'm ready for monday's presentation
:)
Filled with thanksgivings

2010-10-24T17:06:00.000+08:00

Who is your God?

2010-10-23T20:53:00.003+08:00

A little apprehensive, yet excited. I don't know what I'm really feeling.
Scared to start studying and getting all stressed out.
Joining a CCA finally!
yay, new semester.

excited or apprehensive?

2010-10-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

J YUU TII NAIIIIIIIIIIIIIII????????????????
):

2010-10-11T09:53:00.003+08:00

Learnt so much, more than I've ever expected.
On my own, together with everyone, I learnt many things
I felt God there. He is here with me and is still :)
comforts me to think about the past week and remind myself how God had been there.
When I was confused, when I was tired, when I was sad
He told me not to be.

i rak j :)
wish i had a little brother

khachaturian - Gayane suite for two pianos (sabre dance)

2010-09-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

I want to play this! ohomygoodnesssssssssss~ what awesomeness is this!

someday, someone who will.

2010-09-21T21:50:00.002+08:00

cousins :) Really glad that we are so close!

We can talk about anything under the sun :)

youngest on the left to the oldest! You can obviously see that I'm the oldest although I wasn't supposed to be. I was supposed to be born a few days after the guy.

I think my mac looks really nice here :) i like the cover color!!!!!

2010-09-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

is it me? or it is .

2010-09-04T21:58:00.003+08:00

I miss my friends so badly, just this sudden surge of emotions.

I've this really crazy idea about going to UK! Random, but the thought of it makes me go gagagagaga! The best part about it was that when I switched on the television, it was a programme on London ): ): ): ):

Three days of exam definitely wasn't the best thing that has happened this month. It made me go through an emotional roller coaster. Not very nice. Sleeping at 11, waking up at five in the morning, going off to school at 8.

Pray, talk to God, he listens :)

2010-08-31T19:16:00.003+08:00

Mummy pls come home earlier tomorrow, thankyou.

My awesome two weeks. Adorable kids, fun but tiring.

Now I'm having bad stomach aches ):

Pray for me please

My exams are in two days

thankyouverymuch!

2010-08-29T20:17:00.002+08:00

Romans 8:28-30
28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

29For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.

30Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.

31What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?

32He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?

33Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.

34Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.

35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

36As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.

37Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

38For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

39Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

if God is for us, who can be against?

2010-08-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

watched YOG volleyball matches today ^^ really awesome!

2010-08-13T21:33:00.002+08:00

Hey, Happy birthday dearest friend who has been 'married' to me on facebook since 31 december 2009. You mean a lot to me and I would give up anything just for you. I mean it. No matter how awkward it will be, you know I'll still <3 you :) We've made it through the fiercest of quarrels, the fiercest of fights. There's nothing else we can't go through together right?

2010-08-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

wednesday:udders at night!

Ate magnum gold with mum in the afternoon (:

sogurt tmr~! Bren's working tomorrow!

I have something new to learn, to be contented with everything that I have and not to want to have luxuries. Eating ice cream 3 times in 2 days is a luxury.

My sis has a new mattress and she doesn't look like she's going to get off it any sooner.

I miss brother ):

2010-08-10T20:30:00.005+08:00

okay, I have time now.(the order of the pictures are not quite right..)

on sunday, my dear manissa, came to my house!

we made cupcakes and made a few for Dhan but she wasn't feeling well so she only took 2 on monday (took home)

anyway, I LOVE REDMANGO. I think I can finish one whole large cup on my home or maybe like 3 large cups!!! I don't know if the yogurt is giving my toliet problems because I have like stomaches on and off so I'm still eating red mango until I get immune to it :)

2010-08-10T18:48:00.005+08:00

I GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO SAY.

but I don't have time.

so for now, look at the pictures ^^

DION~BIANG~

2010-08-08T21:43:00.001+08:00

sneak peak! ^^

I shall tell more but not for now! :D

(: Great afternoon spent with you and really glad that we had time together :D:D

2010-08-07T10:19:00.006+08:00

awesome birthday celebrated with my family in Hong Kong (:

27 June 2010 was awesome.

I celebrated my birthday at the peak, gazing down at the misty scenery of Hong Kong. It was the first time not celebrating my birthday with friends around me and not having anybody other than my family saying happy birthday to me.

Family time together with absolutely nothing distracting us brought back memories, sweet memories. How brother used to piggyback me and tickle me making me scream like a maniac, how sister and brother used to disturb and suffocate me under my blanket although they knew I was afraid of being alone under the blanket. How I used to look forward and anticipate my siblings coming home from school even though I would never fail to scream.

17th birthday, it was time for me to grow up, to let go of the past and realize it wasn't right to want things I couldn't have. I started to learn how to give, how to not be selfish and give more than take and it did make a difference. I was shocked and my friends were shocked too, at how easily I gave in to their requests no matter how reluctant I was at first to give in to them.

Keeping everything to myself was something really torturous and unbearable. I was glad that you didn't find me a nuisance because I called whenever I felt like it and I didn't really consider much(if you were busy) :( but I'm glad to have an awesome friend like you. Thank you for listening to me this past week and you're the first I've ever been able to so readily admit and face reality to.

Thanks Jaz (:

2010-08-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

last day of school!

last day of fun

last day of memories with these ppl

I hope we get into the same class next semester.

2010-08-02T08:49:00.002+08:00

I started the morning by worrying about my test and everything.
I did my QT. I have to do it everyday, though I know I'm not, discipline!!
I have a post it on my computer to remind myself to trust in God, but I forgot that the moment I woke up ): took me sometime to tell myself to trust in God and lean not on my own understanding..
BRAND NEW WEEK, brand new start ^^

alright, off for breakfast with mummy
and I'll go and find Brennnnnnn soon.<3

2010-07-31T21:13:00.005+08:00

Natnat and sabby made really awesome OREO cupcakes and gave it to us on thursday!!

awesome day out with Dhan, Nab and Jaz!!! <3>I saw Bang car :D heehee

Jaz came to my house to study first, it kind of failed for me because I didn't really study. Nothing went into my head.

Me in my specs!! :)

2010-07-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

^^ I love my mac!

oh ya, Ip man is awesome too!

On monday, I had udders with Erin and Dhan, wednesday, I had island creamery with Dhan, thursday, i had Haagan Daz with mentor and tomorrow I'm going to have red mango ^^!!

SHOW OFF. HAHHAHAHAHAHAH papa wants mama to show off. HAHAHAHH. He meant for her to be present there -.-!

Can't wait for tomorrow!!! :)

I'm going to start studying. Have been off track recently because of all the projects and stuff.

2010-07-29T16:06:00.002+08:00

This is my new friend ^^ she's really awesome and I really like her a lot :)

She loves writing funny poems in our emails to each other and she still owes me a poem about me she has not complete!!!!!! ): You say you'll read this right?! WHERE'S MY POEM ):

it was on tuesday when Bianca, Dion and I started being really mean to each other. Oh wait. THAT IS DION IN THE PICTURE :) though we were mean to each other but it kind of felt harmless. It felt so real, like its been a long time since I was able to talk to someone like a friend, like a friend I've known for years. The semester is going to end soon and and and I really don't want to leave Dion ,Bianca and Natasha. Just when I got to know all of you better, just when we just begin to get closer. ): BID FOR THE SAME CLASS!!!!!

Dhan does not know anything, stop blaming her. >:( makes me angry. I CAN'T. WHY CAN'T YOU SEE.

I GIVE UP TELLING YOU A MILLION TIMES.

YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU REALLY WANT ANYWAY. YOU REALLY DON'T. YOU CAN'T EVEN IN THE PAST. i know more than what you think i really know,all those things,in the past. things that will hurt any girl if they were me. enough is enough

2010-07-25T23:48:00.002+08:00

Don't worry. I'll disappear. I'll never ever go back there again. You will never see me again.

2010-07-25T21:34:00.003+08:00

I love this picture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its so awesomely pretty! Thanks Azima :)
Yuhua band was awesome as usual too! Really proud of Sheryl! You did great.
Saw Ms Straaten and Weiping, I was so happy to talk to them and anyway, NAB AND JAZ, I hope you love your sweets! Those are your birthday presents.(Kind of late and early)
Didn't regret going. I was praying that I wouldn't be afraid nor be a killjoy
Its going to rain and I am going to have a nice sleep tonight :)

The splendor of a King,
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice,
all the earth rejoice.

2010-07-24T17:12:00.002+08:00

^^ I <3 NY! at JFK airport ready to go to HK!

Nat and Bianca are at my house now :)
Mummy was really nice to buy lots of fruits home for me!
I'm still very tired and oh, I forgot that I fell before watching despicable me and I hurt my back. It hurts so badly that I can't lift up my head and lie on my side to sleep.
Mummy massages me .It makes me feel better but it hurts at night ):

2010-07-22T15:04:00.001+08:00

My mood is totally not like this.

I broke down.

2010-07-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

hi GIRLS MY BUTT DAMN PAINNNNNN. SIT TOO LONG AT OURSPACE >: NAT IS SUFFERING TOO. BIANCA ISN'T CAUSE HMMMMM I WONDER WHY??

OK ANYWAY TO EXPLAIN WHAT WE HAFTA DO ON THE APPOINTMENT SHEET FOR THE ATTACHED DOCUMENT.
Biance, Natasha and I have filled in the data according to the appointment sheet which took us alot of hours, sacrificed alot of fat that we ate up (in the hotdogs you see.... o and for nat the scone and cream too.. CREAM) ok so what is left is the TIME AND REASON OF VISIT. So please fill up everything for the following rows!!!

I LOVE DION LA! :)

Today was the first time I ever stayed in school until 10 and follow up until 11.30pm.
PROJECT STILL NOT COMPLETED but Quite completed already, I hope and I guess.

2010-07-21T15:38:00.001+08:00

I'm in a state of turmoil now.

2010-07-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

Adorable movie ^^
I like this movie a lot :D 3-D is awesome!!
Its a really sweet movie and has a really simple story line but its characters are so real, so real that I even believed that they were real. What an awesome dad he is ^^

I think I've got really awesome class mates :) especially Dion and Bianca who never fails to make my day everyday (Y)
BIANCA I KNOW YOU'LL READ THIS :) HEEEHEEE
To tell the truth, I love Dion's nonsense a lot :B

Time to do my BMGT and LMS! byeeeeeee

2010-07-20T14:07:00.002+08:00

A sudden ambition to become a piano teacher and learn one more instrument! Kind of ambitious though. I'm going to aim for that and probably someday go to broadway in new York and be like the musicians playing music for theaterical shows :) but I don't think I want to go back to new York ever again. I still love Singapore food better.

2010-07-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

1 Peter 5:7 (New International Version)

7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

When we're feeling overwhelmed with stress, we're encouraged to "cast our anxiety" (sometimes translated "cares") on God. He's not a stern judge waiting for us to break under our worries; He actively wants to help carry our burdens.

As the new week starts!

and and and and should i start piano again?!

2010-07-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

cheered up.

Learned to let go, to learn that life's like that.

to learn that though I'll get angry, I can't show it physically all the time.

to learn that no matter how much you try, you can't please everybody.

You can't please both Man and God.

God is always there, he'll be there for you because he loves you and he has planned your life all out and if he doesn't feel that I was made for you, he will never let you have me no matter how much you love me.

To pray to God that I'll learn. As time goes by, I'll learn more and you too will learn more. Not only to be disappointed but to learn from what God wants us to learn.

2010-07-16T22:41:00.003+08:00

mummy,daddy, jiejie, where are you guys?
):
I'm alone at home.

Dear mom and dad, I'll obey your instructions and do what I know you expect of me, even when it is not mentioned.

When you want to love your parents, love your family, you'll do anything for them. Even giving up the person you love the most.
When you know how important your parents are to you, how important how you behave is to them, how important it is to obey them then you will know how I feel.

1 Timothy 3 (New International Version)

1 Timothy 3

Overseers and Deacons

1Here is a trustworthy saying: If anyone sets his heart on being an overseer, he desires a noble task. 2Now the overseer must be above reproach, the husband of but one wife, temperate, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach, 3not given to drunkenness, not violent but gentle, not quarrelsome, not a lover of money. 4He must manage his own family well and see that his children obey him with proper respect. 5(If anyone does not know how to manage his own family, how can he take care of God's church?) 6He must not be a recent convert, or he may become conceited and fall under the same judgment as the devil. 7He must also have a good reputation with outsiders, so that he will not fall into disgrace and into the devil's trap.
8Deacons, likewise, are to be men worthy of respect, sincere, not indulging in much wine, and not pursuing dishonest gain. 9They must keep hold of the deep truths of the faith with a clear conscience. 10They must first be tested; and then if there is nothing against them, let them serve as deacons.

11In the same way, their wives[b] are to be women worthy of respect, not malicious talkers but temperate and trustworthy in everything.

12A deacon must be the husband of but one wife and must manage his children and his household well. 13Those who have served well gain an excellent standing and great assurance in their faith in Christ Jesus.

2010-07-16T09:28:00.004+08:00

I am venting everything that I feel right now out here, not really nice to be complaining about it to anyone anyway.Maybe its everything put together which makes me so frustrated right now. Funny how I couldn't make it for once and I was being shoot like it was the end of the world while others who cannot make it for the rest of the week and doesn't get shoot at all.

What am I supposed to do now.
I'm tired. I need a rest but I can't have it.
Wheres the sense of urgency.

woah.